turns his face away from him entirely, even, because he doesn't want to see tim's face. doesn't want to see what expression he's got on his face. jason stands by his actions, almost always. stands by killing almost every monster he's put down. doesn't regret his actions after he came out of the grave, doesn't regret the path he went down, except for this one part of it.
he could acknowledge how much of a shithead damian is. or the whole robin replacement chain that jason's been part of, or the part about tim following him, his death mattering. but he doesn't. because that's not what this is about, and he doesn't want to derail himself. )
I was so pissed, 'cause no one was there for me when I needed it. 'cause Bruce's response to me having. . . problems was to tell me I was fucked and bench me 'til I got help or whatever. ( planned on benching him for good was jason's take on it. there was no getting better for him. jason was at his best when bruce pulled him, he's only gone downhill from there. )
I should've been there for you. Instead of being so fucking focused on hurting him I should've focused on being better than him. That's on me. What I did, regardless of whatever shit led to it, that was on me. I did it. I hurt you. ( how much different would it have been, if he'd ignored talia's don't seek him out. if he'd gone back home, if alfred had gotten his hands on jason before he'd gone so far down the path of revenge there was no coming back from it. if he'd just--if he'd had someone to lean on, just a little.
how much better could shit have gone for tim if jason had recognized that was his whole damn problem all along and got back at bruce by proving he could be that for him. )
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turns his face away from him entirely, even, because he doesn't want to see tim's face. doesn't want to see what expression he's got on his face. jason stands by his actions, almost always. stands by killing almost every monster he's put down. doesn't regret his actions after he came out of the grave, doesn't regret the path he went down, except for this one part of it.
he could acknowledge how much of a shithead damian is. or the whole robin replacement chain that jason's been part of, or the part about tim following him, his death mattering. but he doesn't. because that's not what this is about, and he doesn't want to derail himself. )
I was so pissed, 'cause no one was there for me when I needed it. 'cause Bruce's response to me having. . . problems was to tell me I was fucked and bench me 'til I got help or whatever. ( planned on benching him for good was jason's take on it. there was no getting better for him. jason was at his best when bruce pulled him, he's only gone downhill from there. )
I should've been there for you. Instead of being so fucking focused on hurting him I should've focused on being better than him. That's on me. What I did, regardless of whatever shit led to it, that was on me. I did it. I hurt you. ( how much different would it have been, if he'd ignored talia's don't seek him out. if he'd gone back home, if alfred had gotten his hands on jason before he'd gone so far down the path of revenge there was no coming back from it. if he'd just--if he'd had someone to lean on, just a little.
how much better could shit have gone for tim if jason had recognized that was his whole damn problem all along and got back at bruce by proving he could be that for him. )